there are many many things i do not need. but before we go into those, i'd like to mention one thing i do need: i do need children to walk in front of me and utter things like "but i have no IDEA what it's like to be a mushroom!" and then have his friend say "just try... just try to think like a mushroom."
but in the list of things i do not need: lots of furniture, lots of clothes, an ipod, a recipe for split-pea soup because it's disgusting, and, of course, i do not need an ex-boyfriend who broke my heart a year and 1/2 ago emailing me to let me know that i (and the professor) are beneficiaries on his life insurance policy. i just don't need it. i don't need the feeling of getting punched in the gut it brings, i don't need the reminder of how much i compromised myself for one person, and i don't need the wondering what the hell the whole thing even means. i'm lost enough in the whole human dating/mating ritual thing as it is; unless a guy tells me "you're hot. i like you. i think we should go out." i have no idea what's going on. so this? THIS? i don't want it. i don't need it. i'm not interested in going down that road again and i sure as hell do not need the journey back.
so back to the things i do need: Lactaid when i want to eat delicious ice cream, books about serial killers and goofy science, and apparently more bath towels, as i dried myself off with a hand towel after yoga tonight. i also need my future amazing life partner to realize that the time of hiding himself is done. that he needs to both himself and i a favor and get serious with this whole thing. i would like to have said man threaten to beat someone up when they hurt my feelings, then have us both start laughing after he says it because we're pacifists.... and have him read books in bed before we go to sleep and/or make-out....and honestly, have us do all the boring stuff that people in relationships hate but i miss. and we can go on road trips and be best friends forever.
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